Okay, so before I get to a post on Touko’s journey through teh DT, I just wanted to step-in a talk about my real-life boyfriend. Well, fiance, though the word still makes him a bit breathless and deer-in-the-headlights-y.
This is me, and my love, Billy. He’s been my life for over a year and a half now. I love him more than anything in the world, and if talking about Touko’s feelings for N in a tumblr blog makes him jealous, I’m going to let everybody who sees this know who really has MY heart. :) Because I love you more than anything, Billy. More than Pokemon, more than my awesome Gardevoir Athena, more than all the shinies you could shove into the storage.
He’s been there for me through many, many things in my life. Times when things between my best friends were going wrong, when my family was getting overwhelming, when school was taking its toll, and when my past was breaking my present. He has—and continues to still today—supported me even when I’ve doubted myself more than anything, and made me realize that love is real, that marriage won’t mean learning to hate somebody you love, and teaching me that not every guy in my life will leave me or hurt me. He’s helped repair the damage of years and years of things I still feel I won’t ever be able to face completely…but he’s working on it with me, and helping me come to terms with it if nothing else.
He makes me laugh and always makes my troubles disappear when we’re together. I have theories about him being an awesome Japanese-made cyborg, but…he eats and doesn’t spark when we go swimming, so yeah. And I know he’s not prefect—but he’s the closest I’ve ever seen to it. He makes me want to be a better person because he’s a better person than I think I might ever be. But for him, I try everyday.
He’s shown me that people can be selfless and kind, genuine and intelligent. That lvoe doesn’t have to be based one lies and money, or owing somebody. And more than that, that love doesn’t hurt—that it doesn’t mean trying to be somebody you not to make somebody you care about care about you, too. It’s simply wanting to be the kind of person that person would be proud to say, “That’s the one I love. The one I want to spend my entire life with.”
And Billy…you’re that person. You’re MY true love, my soul-mate, and the man I want to be with for the rest of my life. I want to be your best friend forever, your wife until we’re old and wrinkly, and the mother of your children. And I know I will be. :)
Billy, I love you more than anything, and will always be here for you no matter what. ))